Love in the time of Covid-19 was a time of gratitude and self-love for me. I was 5 years post-divorce and was struggling with a lot of loss. The loss of home, family-life as I knew it. I felt like the rest of the world caught up to me. It actually brought my adult kids home from school and I was given the gift of time, to cook together, watch shows and play games without the stress and worry of our broken family, rather we built our new home and new family. I felt loved again, alive again, and needed. When they left I was ok I did not feel abandoned or betrayed any longer. I felt love and I loved myself. I weathered some major storms, and I came out ok, even better. I cooked and ate great food, drank some good wine and some bad. I read and learned about forgiveness and let go of my fear to forgive those that hurt and abandoned me. I let go of the need for an apology to ease my pain, and I slowly can see the sparkle return to my eyes and the skip return to my step. I began to let go of all I was carrying for others and let myself grow. Thank God my divorce happened before Covid or I’m not sure I could have handled both. I am grateful that I had time to rebuild a life, a home, and my family. I learned a home full of love is in my control and I’m grateful I learned this and my children got to share my transformation.
