A poem about grief and love…

“Say Yes! to life”
It’s one of my highest aspirations

But how do I say Yes to an 18-year-old shooter killing elementary school kids?
How do I say Yes to heedless, needless death?
How do I say Yes to polarization and righteous action?
How do I say Yes to white supremacy? climate change?
And the fact that half of us don’t trust the other half?

I sit still,
heavy

Slowly, I fold my heart
into the aching hearts
of those suffering

I take a deep breath
Trusting this “say yes” tenet
And feel for the Yes inside myself.

I say Yes
to This
Because they can’t say no
They can’t change what is
Their babies gone

So, I say Yes to feeling this pain
a tangible thing left
of their love

I say Yes to their eternal parental love
reflected by our collective grief

I sit still
in
That

The pine trees move gently in the breeze
A/C runs in the background
And I feel other Yesses rise up

I say Yes to supporting gun control
I say Yes to taking action
I say Yes to feeling inadequate, but sending money anyway

I say Yes to the politicians and poets who,
more poignantly than I,
speak and write
about this tragedy
Like Amanda Gorman,
whose poem ends
“The truth is, one nation under guns.”

I say Yes to what we have become—Lost
Because until we accept we are lost,
we cannot find our way home

This.
This grieving, blood torn community
This is what is

So, let’s call it what it is

Yes: we are violent
Yes: we are righteous
Yes: we hurt each other
Yes: we are afraid
Yes: we don’t know what to do
Yes: we can’t find common ground
Yes: we point fingers

Yes: we love our children

Until we say Yes
to What Is
Right Now
We cannot help ourselves
And each other
change into something better

 

(Photo by Pawel Janiak on Unsplash

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